I hope someone out there has missed me posting. I do have good reason for the delay. Please allow me another blog of a personal nature.
2018 has not been a walk in the park as they say. It has actually been a year of trials, disappointments, and pain.
We are just in August and I have already lost three important people in my life. These were not mere acquaintances or casual friends. All three of them were close friends that held special places in my heart. I am still trying to grasp the loss and figure out how to deal with them not being here. I would talk to all three very often. Their silence is deafening.
Then, as life would have it, I injured my shoulder to the point it required surgery. I have had shoulder surgery before, but it was nothing like this. It is actually causing me a lot of pain to type this blog, but I wanted to touch base with you and maybe even get your input.
I have had a rude awakening. I am not the age I think I am in my mind. My body reminds me on a daily basis as a new ache appears, or I just don't have the energy to complete in one day what would take only an hour just a few years ago. Then something moves stuff all the time. I know I'm not that forgetful.
Then losing these incredable people, all of them suddenly and each within 2 years of my age, has taken a huge toll. Just on numbers alone, my time is drawing close. I know none of us are guaranteed another minute, but the odds are much more in the favor of me passing today than they have ever been. No matter what I say, that clock just keeps on ticking and time is flying by.
I have come to the place that I can thank God for His mercy that none of them suffered long. I'm so grateful for that.
I have chosen to remember the best times I shared with each of my friends. I keep their memory daily in my heart. I try to connect with the awesome friends that are still here. I'm so grateful for the people God has put in my life.
I find joy in the innocence and love of my great grandson and his mother. The effort they make to come see me and check on me every day. Since Bobby is not home I am grateful to have family in the house with me in case I fall or need help since I can't use my arm. Bobby finds peace in this as well. I welcome calls from my children and enjoy pictures and posts of my grandchildren and all my friends. God is good to me.
I was blessed last week with a new baby great granddaughter and will welcome another one before the end of the year.
I am thankful that as I recover from this awful and painful surgery the Lord has helped me not focus on my knee that will require replacement. Another of my many parts that are requiring upgrading.
I am thankful that I will see each of my friends again in heaven, which is our real home. I hold onto the last memories I shared with each of them. It helps and it hurts at the same time.
I know many of you share my disappointment in my book not being published yet. I pray it will be out in December. This should allow me time to heal from my shoulder surgery to do the things I will need to do in promoting it. My book titled Broken Pieces.is ironic when I think of it. My heart is full of broken pieces. But the good news is God is still with us. He paints these beautiful sunsets we see and the ones we experience. As we see our last sunset, there will be a sunrise that will be even more beautiful when we wake....whether on this side or the other.
Make the most of every minute. Live a life you are proud of. Be happy in something every day. Get the negativity out of your life. It is too short for pettiness, negativity and drama. Remember you are loved.
